On monday, so five days ago, I started eating Paleo.
This also had a lot to do (well, everything, really) with my aforementioned aunt.
I live on campus at my school and am kinda tied down to a food plan. Without a kitchen or a reliable, large enough refrigerator. But, I was determined to do it. I wanted to feel better about my body and my food choices and yes, lose some weight. Hopefully.
I soon figured out that with my schedule and resources it would be extra tough.
There aren't very many dairy, legume, and grain free options on campus. And throwing no sugar/sweetener added into there didn't help the cause either. I would find an option, only to find out after a small inspection that there were starches in there. No good. Or that there was some cheese. No good either. Or that there was some sort of grain or legume in the ingredients list. I was very disheartened. All I wanted to do was stick to my 30-day challenge and start feeling better! But it was so much harder than it had to be. However, my body did feel better. I woke up and it felt good. My tummy wasn't bloated or my head wasn't achy and I didn't mind the challenge quite so much.
And it was only the first few days!
But.
Last night I had a huge lapse.
And it was terrible.
There was ice cream and some cookies involved.
Which, interestingly enough, I rarely let myself eat the past few months before I started Paleo.
I woke up this morning feeling sick and like I was hungover.
And I was hungover. From so much sugar! My head hurts and my body feels so tired.
Plus, to top it all off with a forbidden maraschino cherry, I'm really disappointed in myself.
I just want to have self-control and feel good.
And lose weight in a healthy, safe way.
But I totally screwed up.
I wasn't even that far in, but now I have to start all over from scratch.
And it really makes me sad.
I don't know what to do.
This is pretty challenging to do while living on campus with a food plan, but if I give up, does that mean I'm a quitter? The last thing I want to be is a stupid, lacking self-control, disappointing, quitter.
I need some answers.
Don't give up! These things happen. You are learning to eat better foods, and eat in a more healthy way-it's going to take a little time. At some point your thinking will shift from feeling guilty, to being ok with a little indulgence every now and again. I had milk last night in my coffee. Not the end of the world, but not going to have it again today.
ReplyDeletekeep researching, keep trying, and you will be successful. when we did our 30 day challenge, it was a lot easier for us because we don't have a meal plan ;) and we didn't have any of that stuff in the house.
don't give up just yet. just because you had one slip up doesn't make you a failure. remember to not be so hard on yourself! focus on whats working for you NOW. remember how bad you felt when you woke up today, the next time you're tempted. love you! oxoxo
next time, when you are tempted with whatever type of food you don't think you should be eating, just ask yourself if it's worth it. will it be worth feeling like crap the next day? (sugar hangovers are the WORST) is it that special of an occasion that you want to indulge; or is it just tuesday?
I should also mention that I am very proud of you for doing this!
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